I blew it.
But I told her I love her. She prly thinks I'm weird.
I don't like her boyfriend.
but he makes her happy. That's all that matters.

my wallpaper at work. :)

april 22

it was 2 years ago, today, that i kicked the most wonderful person, in my life, out of my life.
:(

i'm such a fool.

ugh....

how do you go from being lovers to being friends?

:(

so, i'm not upset...

i'm not angry, or upset.
but you don't hear from someone for a few days...and then they want to stop talking to you for a couple weeks?
and when you ask them to call, it's like you have to have a reason?
well, yes. the reason being i wanted to talk. communicate.
you made it sound like i forced you to call me.
i thought it'd be nice if you'd call and ask how my day went, how i was doing?

:(
it sucks. i can't even email to see how she's been, what she's feeling.
and that hurts.