that you would leave if given half the chance to go and
i'd be left here on my own
to find myself in bed
wishing everything that changed would be the same
the room still looks like you
it's a mess and all the pictures on the shelf are
dusted off by someone else
to keep me company
i haven't told her that your thought still lingers on
- William Fitzsimmons
i'll admit; she does still come in and out of my thoughts. i'm not going to lie.
i don't think there will ever be a day that she won't be in my mind. and on my heart.
i loved her with everything. and to not be there when she departed from this world... tears me down.
i look around, and all i see is her.
in peoples faces, in their walk...the clothes they wear.
people walking by...i wave hello.
i see it in their smile.
she smiled all the time.
that i miss the most.
her smile. it made me feel safe.
i don't really get that feeling from anyone else here.
i do feel safe....but i can't look at anyone and tell them i feel safe around them.
that really makes me sad.
i guess i have issues of trust. i trust few.
i have a hard time trust myself.
if you would come back home....
i swear it would be better.
